As promised, here is a bit of an update post for your reading pleasure …
I basically tried to disappear from the Internet for a few months. Every now and then I think we likely could all benefit from a little break. In my case, I was going through a very stressful life change and I didn’t want people coming to my blog (or Facebook or Instagram or whatever) to try to snoop around and figure out what was going on.
I mentioned a while back that my now ex-husband and I were kinda sorta thinking about starting a family. So yeah … I guess you could say that we essentially ended a family instead of starting one. I don’t plan to share too much about this, partly because this is supposed to be a running blog and mainly because it doesn’t affect just me.
It wasn’t an easy decision, but I truly believe that it is ultimately for the best. It became very apparent that we weren’t on the same page whatsoever regarding much and neither one of us was truly happy. Granted, only one of us was willing to admit this at the time, but seeing as how the the other one is already in a very serious relationship, I would venture to say that we are likely on the same page with that now too.
Edited one year later to add: We are both remarried now and while I can’t speak for anyone else, I would venture to say that everyone involved can now agree that everything that happened was for the best and that everything worked out how it was supposed to.
Looking back I can definitely see that when we first met, I had a lot healing left to do. We got married too young and too quickly (blah blah blah (I know it’s the same thing a lot of people say)). We didn’t consider some very important issues on the front end and to be fair, we didn’t even know that certain issues would even be issues. I have done A LOT of work over the last 4 to 5 years and I am in such a better place now. I could honestly write an entire book about some of these topics and one day I just might. If I do, I’ve already got the title or at least one of the chapters names picked out. It will be, “I’ll love you forever, but I’m going to need that ring back.”
At this point I am trying to learn from my “mistakes” and am very much trying to retrain my brain to view mistakes not as mistakes at all but instead as “learning opportunities.” Everything that has happened up until this point has shaped me and made me who I am today. I am using my past experiences to guide my future. There is no looking back … only forward. Basically now I am just looking for a human who will love me as much as my dog does. Is that really too much to ask? I mean, Brooks has set the bar very high, but I feel certain that someone will come along that can fill his shoes.
I’ve gotta say, work has been such a blessing during this chaotic time in my life. In the past I would’ve likely said that work was one of the most stressful areas of my life, especially during January to April. Well this year … work really seemed to be one of the only stable and least stressful things in my life. I am so incredibly thankful for that because I really don’t think I could’ve taken any more stress. I didn’t cry once because of work this tax season, which may seem silly, but is actually quite a good way to measure how the season went. My employers (a husband and wife team) have been incredibly understanding and have gone above and beyond to show their appreciation and gratitude for the work that I do.
Whew. Now that we’ve knocked out the major “life” stuff, let’s get back to talking about all things running, shall we?